more about Jackie!
Whenever people ask about “my story” (including the Common App), I usually talk about my experiences with anxiety. As much of a struggle my anxiety has been, I think it has largely shaped the person that I am today, and for that I am honestly very grateful. Growing up, I dealt with a lot of personal anxiety, and it peaked around the start of middle school. I had a really difficult time with a lot of aspects of daily life, which made more daunting tasks appear all the more impossible. I couldn’t bring myself to go out, try new things, or venture past the things that were familiar to me. Everything felt too overwhelming and intimidating, and it felt easier to give in to hiding out in my room and sticking to my predictable routine. In this time I fell back a lot on my Christian faith which offered me a lot of comfort and support. I don’t think that my “story” would be complete if I didn’t mention my faith. I’ve since found a lot of ways to deal with my anxiety, to the point where it is now a small thought in the back of my mind rather than the reigning voice that overpowers my logic. My experiences with anxiety have since taught me how to find strength and resilience in times of difficulty, and how not to shy away from the unknown. I now feel as though I owe it to myself to do and try everything that I’ve ever wanted to do and try, without letting my own fears of rejection or unpredictability deter me.
Jackie's Personal Story
Jackie's Hobbies, Passions & Interests
I’ve always really enjoyed creative writing, which is why I’m here today as an English major. I grew up writing a lot with my dad who would help me to revise my work with the genuine intention of getting it published (as he’s also self-published his own work). We haven’t gotten there yet, but I’m sure we will someday. I’m also really interested in art/arts and crafts. My dad has also commented that thinks that I use art as a creative outlet to “get a sense of control of my life.” This may or may not be true. I do a lot of crocheting, painting, drawing/sketching, and sewing. My life sometimes feels like a series of mini passion projects––I have a lot of hyperfixations. I’ve self-taught myself how to play guitar and the ukulele, I like scrapbooking, I enjoy baking (when what I’m making comes out right, which is rare), and I like competitive sports (even though I’m really unathletic). I enjoy spending time with friends and family, whether we’re taking on a mini adventure or going out for a boba run. I’m always down to try something new, and since I’ve been here I’ve gone rock climbing, played intramural soccer, and signed up for water polo (which I’ll probably give up because I learned that you have to be good at swimming first).
Arts and crafts
Guitar and ukulele
Scrapbooking and baking
I’ve been told that I have a very unique and eccentric personality, which I take as a compliment. I spent a large part of my life being anxious about being liked and not coming across as weird, which caused me to compensate by being even weirder (which doesn’t really make sense). I think I just wanted to own the fact that I could be a little strange and act like I didn’t care about how others viewed me. Now, I’ve come to a point in my life where I’ve accepted the person I am and the fact that the right people will also accept me. I don’t need to overcompensate or peek at how others are perceiving me, which is why the word “eccentric” has stuck with me. I think “eccentric” is a perfect medium for being both a little unconventional and interesting.
I’ve also been told that I’m very happy-go-lucky and wholesome. I try to be genuine and kind to the people around me, and I hope that I am able to make a positive impact, even in doing the little things. I have a strong moral compass and sense of integrity, which are things that I take a lot of pride in, and they definitely play a huge role in how I view and treat others. I think that I’m pretty outgoing, positive, and talkative, but I also work to be more than just superficially friendly. I hope to make authentic connections and to be able to be someone that others can rely and depend on.
Jackie's Sense of Humor
I would like to think that I’m pretty funny. I think my humor can range from being witty to silly to stupid. In general, I find a lot of things funny so it isn’t difficult to find the humor in everyday life/occurrences. Whether or not people think the same of my humor is another story.
Jackie's Proudest Moment
I’m not totally sure if I have a proudest moment, but I’ve found myself experiencing a lot of proud moments through college (the last few weeks). I honestly worried a lot about myself before college. I worried that I wouldn’t be able to adjust and (honestly) downspiraling and dropping out of school. My concerns were probably a bit dramatic, but I was pretty anti-college nonetheless. I couldn’t imagine myself getting assimilated, and the idea of having a good time was totally out of the picture. But since I’ve gotten here I’ve been really surprised by how well I’m doing. I’ve been able to make a lot of friends from lots of different backgrounds, I’ve found myself genuinely enjoying my classes, and I’ve pushed myself to branch out and try a lot of new things (including KPL!). I’m also proud of myself for being able to stay in regular contact with my friends and family. I know that I am personally not great at staying in communication with people that aren’t in my immediate vicinity, and so I worried about staying close with people from back at home. But I’ve actually been able to talk and connect very frequently with my family and friends, and in more intimate ways than before.
Jackie's Perfect Day
My perfect day would start at 8am. I would call myself a morning person––I think I am most productive in the morning. I think a good start to the morning determines a good rest of my day. I would get up early and meet my friends at Celebrity Bagels, the local bagel shop in our town. We would all get our bagels and then walk over to the bus stop where we would take the transit bus into New York City. We would walk around the city and then head over to the Met where we would get discounted tickets as NJ students. We would spend at least three hours roaming the Met before heading off to a nearby grocery store. We would get sandwiches and fruit and have a mini picnic at Central Park. We would swing by Magnolia Bakery before heading back home on the bus. Once we’re back home, we’ll force our designated driver to take us to the beach for a few hours. Maybe we’ll grab dinner somewhere near the boardwalk before heading back home. Once I’m home, I’ll drive my sister out to get Gong Cha. Driving to Gong Cha at night with the windows down and her music blasting is probably our favorite bonding activity. That would be my perfect day.